love to love.

I'm not a love hater. In fact, I'm quite the opposite. I really dont know WHY I love love so much, but I just do. I think its because I want to believe is something... and since Santa isn't real and the tooth fairy never actually brought me money I want to believe is something sort of magical.

So I guess I'll believe in love.

My #1 life goal is to never get divored. And I understand that this is slightly ridiculous and everyone laughs at me, and the statstics and world all seem to be against me... but I will say that when I write down my goals I almost never fail. and I really really hope I never get divorced.

I've met a lot of love-haters lately. I'm not exactly sure why this is... they have probably been hurt or seen their loved ones suffer, whatever.  All I'm saying is... You aren't the only person who has been hurt. and sometimes, I think that people forget that. Just because you got hurt once doesn't mean you always will. Doesn't mean you won't eventually heal. And it sure doesn't mean the whole world is out to get you.

"And if you're in love then you're the lucky one because most of us are bitter over someone" -- Youth, by Daughter.

The way I see it is... people fall in love. And usually it happens pretty quickly, and eventually that wears off. But love isn't just about the excitement and the lust and the almost obsession. Love is a decision. It's a conscious effort and commitment to one person for the rest of your life. To be there when things are good as well as when things are rough. And you might not always like the person that you love, but you will always defend them and drop your pride because that's what peope should do when they are in love.

I just want my husband to be in love with my for life.  And I really want people to be able to tell how much I love my husband, my whole life.  I want them to know that when I look at him our love is real and it's forever.

Maybe I'm a dreamer, but I think its a pretty worthy goal.

but like I always say... "I love to love you, but above all, I love to love"

My name is Rachelle... and I'm looking for a job.

This past week I hit a major life milestone... I graduated from Utah State University.  

It was really an awesome day, full of pictures, great food, great company, etc.  It was just really strange because it wasn't as big of a deal as you think it would be... like I just shook some strangers hand and got a booklet with a piece of paper stating I would get my diploma in the next 8 weeks. Like, okay....

All I'm saying is, graduation has given me the greatest thing ever-- and thats the ability to breathe and just live my motto of "do what I feel" for once in my life.  Dedicating this summer to accomplishing all the goals I've neglected this past year, like developing hobbies for instance.

The past 4 weeks have truly been so amazing and I've basically never been happier.  With little to no finals and just hanging out with some pretty amazing people I was able to actually enjoy my last few weeks of school after such a challenging senior year.  

I will admit that getting an email from both Kappa Delta headquarters as well as USU University that said something along the lines of "Welcome to the Wonderful World of Alumni-hood" basically made me cry.

It's just strange that my WHOLE LIFE I've just been doing the same thing... going to school, enjoying life... and the morning of graduation I woke up I thought to myself "the second I get out of this bed my life will never be the same again".  The best (aka the worst) part about graduation is all of the sudden everyone expects me to just be the crazy-mature adult who talks about sophistication and my awesome future plans when honestly, all I want to do is sleep until everyone goes back to school before I really get a job again.  I mean of course I'm going to use my degree in Social Work-- I love it.  It's just that I'm still a mere 21 year old trying out to figure out what to do in life.  

All I'm saying is according to recent life events, I'm for sure supposed to be an adult... but I'm still trying to figure it all out.  It is really just a strange place to be in my life now... It's like my 5 year plan has officially ended, so I don't even know what to do with my life! It's exciting and scary at the same time. 

but like Vitamin C always says... "As we go on, we remember all the times we had together, and as our lives change, come whatever...we will still be friends forever". 

--yeah, couldn't have said it better myself.