Monday, May 20, 2013

love to love.

I'm not a love hater. In fact, I'm quite the opposite. I really dont know WHY I love love so much, but I just do. I think its because I want to believe is something... and since Santa isn't real and the tooth fairy never actually brought me money I want to believe is something sort of magical.

So I guess I'll believe in love.

My #1 life goal is to never get divored. And I understand that this is slightly ridiculous and everyone laughs at me, and the statstics and world all seem to be against me... but I will say that when I write down my goals I almost never fail. and I really really hope I never get divorced.

I've met a lot of love-haters lately. I'm not exactly sure why this is... they have probably been hurt or seen their loved ones suffer, whatever.  All I'm saying is... You aren't the only person who has been hurt. and sometimes, I think that people forget that. Just because you got hurt once doesn't mean you always will. Doesn't mean you won't eventually heal. And it sure doesn't mean the whole world is out to get you.

"And if you're in love then you're the lucky one because most of us are bitter over someone" -- Youth, by Daughter.

The way I see it is... people fall in love. And usually it happens pretty quickly, and eventually that wears off. But love isn't just about the excitement and the lust and the almost obsession. Love is a decision. It's a conscious effort and commitment to one person for the rest of your life. To be there when things are good as well as when things are rough. And you might not always like the person that you love, but you will always defend them and drop your pride because that's what peope should do when they are in love.

I just want my husband to be in love with my for life.  And I really want people to be able to tell how much I love my husband, my whole life.  I want them to know that when I look at him our love is real and it's forever.

Maybe I'm a dreamer, but I think its a pretty worthy goal.

but like I always say... "I love to love you, but above all, I love to love"


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